you don’t have to be sorry for leaving and growing up

Were you born in a family that doesn’t always appreciate you?

Did you grow up in a household where you thought what you went through was normal?

Did you have to grow up quicker than everyone else just to be the emotionally mature one in the family?

This is for people who have a complete family but have never felt one who always chooses to be distant and alone who somehow always had too much but never enough. Who, despite how much they love their family, thier efforts are not seen.

It is for the children who grew up in toxic households trying their best not to recall the trauma they’ve been through. Children who grew up hearing shouts and screams of anger in the morning instead of a delicious breakfast. Children who cover their ears when there’s an argument and hide in the corner.

It’s about the children who did everything to get the validation of their parents but failed to do so. It’s for the elder sisters that were forced to be emotionally mature in a young age. The elder sisters who look after everyone but herself. For the sisters who are fighting in silence because they are now too scared to express their feelings to anyone especially to their family. The eldest daughter who have big dreams but fear they will not achieve it because of “big sister responsibilities”.

“You don’t have to be sorry for doing it on your own.”

You don’t have to be sorry for being brave enough to separate yourself from the toxic environment you were in. You don’t have to be sorry for being able to regain confidence when you moved out of your childhood home.

You can break the generational trauma that’s been normalized for years. You can forgive your parents without even hearing an apology because you grew up not apologizing to each other. You can let it go. You can let them go.

This is for the ones who are slowly trying to recreate a life for themselves and be the adult that they needed as a kid. If respect is not served, leave the table. You don’t always have the option to do it but you can always do it for yourself. You deserve the freedom and the love that you need. I know it’s difficult to forget and forgive when you never heard “sorry” but it’s not for them. It’s for you ,  for your peace of mind and to let go the heavy feeling in your heart.

Choose what makes your heart warm and happy. Choose what doesn’t feel make you feel like a burden. 

“You don’t have to be sorry for leaving and growing up.”

With warm hugs, 
Nanna🫂

(here is what bestf has to say; and i'd tell this to yalls, "you've got this". )