Every year, it’s the same thing!🥺

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Every year, it’s the same. November walks in quietly, and I start feeling weird.

Everyone keeps asking what I want to do for my birthday, and I just say, “nothing.” Not because I don’t care, but because I actually do maybe a little too much. And when you care too much, disappointment feels harder.

Birthdays have never really been my thing. I don’t hate them, I just... don’t like how they make me feel. It’s supposed to be this happy day, but for me, it’s like a mirror  one that reminds me how much time has passed and how little has changed.

I keep saying it’s just another day, but somewhere inside, I’m still that person hoping someone would make it feel special without me having to ask for it.

It’s strange how November always feels heavier than the rest of the months. Maybe because it’s tied to the idea of growing up, maybe because I secretly expect more from it every year.

There’s no party, no grand plan. Just me a little anxious, a little sentimental, a little tired. And maybe that’s okay, I guess.


From my sad boi hours,
nandi❤

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  1. AnonymousSunday, November 7, 2021 at 12:26:00 PM GMT+5:30

    Hey Nandini! How are you doing? I'm from Twitter. We used to occasionally interact. You love my cat posts. For some mysterious reason, you crossed my mind today and I though of checking on you and ended up here. I hope you're doing good. I don't fully fathom how you feel about yourself, but you seem like an amazing human being and shouldn't have any reason to doubt yourself. You're your own person and don't have to prove anything to anyone. Anyway, wishing you a very happy birthday in advance. Have a good one. See you around, I guess?

    -TSJ

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    1. Nandini PundirSunday, November 28, 2021 at 9:10:00 PM GMT+5:30

      Hello Cat Hooman,

      i had the best of my 22nd.
      thanks for your humblest greetings.

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